Tuesday, July 11, 2006
today...aint myself...really..aint myself...feeling frustrated...feeling sad...but..still..rmbed what liang..hao..and my lao da told me...smile...and what my lao da told me...share the sadness with him...but..most of the time he ish with keith they all...haixsh...
to me..sadness cant be shared...why?...if i am sad...i am willing to take up all the pain i am suffering...but..if i share my sadness with my friends...i am dragging them into the picture and causing the innocent parties to be hurt...why should i drag someone innocent nehx?
haixsh...today...laughter..there ish...but...behind laghter...sadness...saw what my lao da tagged me..and told me...dont be sad...if i sad..he happy...if i happy...he sad...haixsh...when will there be a day where me and my lao da be happy together?...lolz...
to lao da...not say i dont want to share my sadness with you...or divide my sadness and give half to you...just...dont want to get you involved...if i am the one being sad and bearing all the pain..i should...cause afterall..the wounds i have will not be healed...staying there forever...
to liang...thks for advising me..to smile...but...smiling will never ever help me...anyway...maybe see you becoming more and more happy...i will feel abit happy liao...
to joe...(although you never come my blog)...just want to tell you that i know her more then you...please do not ask me how she looks like..cause you bumped into her before..and i guess you should have known how she looked like...maybe..you will never understand derhx...haixsh...sho...dont care to much about me and her...
to liang again...erm..the project ish almost done..erm..just left some things to touch up..and left some interviews...and maybe by this week or next monday...the thing ish ok lerhx...wait patiently to see the video barhx...
love can be complicated...
love can be simple...
love can be kind...
love can be cruel...
if i could only think it through...
wounds will never be there...
if i could forget her now...
i wouldnt have love her from the start...
'N's are coming...
her 'O's are soon starting...
the only thing i can do...
to wish her all the best...
regrets never exist...
hopes are far...
are they reachable?...
i will never know...
-= SaDnEsS IsH AlWaYs ThErE =-
Tuesday, July 11, 2006