Wednesday, July 12, 2006
today...not of any mood...was not smiling or anything...was angry today...wasnt in a good mood...i wasnt in a good mood as firstly...about the project we are doing...secondly...what eugene told me off...i thought about it...thirdly...because of her i guess...
firstly...the project...asking keith to interview mrs lee...he rejected..went off to the toilet with my lao da...wasnt in a really good mood at that time..got a feeling of giving up..firstly...i cant interview as i cant really speak welll in front of teachers or someone really special to me or anything..thats why i from the start..after interviewing mr koh...i heard my own recording...i felt that..eugene ish better then me..sho..i wanted eugene to do the job or the rest of the group members...
secondly...eugene...when i went back to where my bag was placed...i was intending to ask him for help or anything..he was like..reprimanded me...sort of...but..i didnt want to say anything..i jsut kept everything to myself...telling myself...not to be angry..not to say anything...just myself know can lerhx..but..it wasnt a good idea...thoughts wandered off at that time...
thirdly...erm..wasnt in good mood because of her i guess...the one that i like..but..she will never know..saw her when i went to the toilet with hairi...maybe...maybe i really should talk to mrs lee about my condition...erm..need to like..personally chat with her..if not..if i carry on going on...i will really fall sick..damn sick...but who cares right?
a poem that i thought of...
friends are never there...
they are there when they need your help...
will there be true friends...
or a world of friends that lies?
when you need friends...
they leave you...
when friends need you...
you are there...
from this poem...maybe everyone knows what i am trying to say...i just dont know whether should i change anot...if i change..i maybe hurting the people around me...i am really really tired...firstly..relationship problems..now...friends...i just dont know what to do...
maybe i should really just changed...be a different person...dont care about what others think of me...just sometimes think..i treat people sho good..i sacrifice my time to keep my friends company when they need and help them in every way they need...but..is my help appreciated or treaasure?saying thanks doesnt meant that i feel that you appreciate me...but..i feel that you ae just saying for the sake of saying...
today..will be ending off here...not going to say much...tml will be the same as today...will never going to change...maybe..maybe after remedial..i really need to talk to mrs lee...just..erm..need someone to talk to..okie barhx..byeees...
-= SaDnEsS IsH AlWaYs ThErE =-
Wednesday, July 12, 2006