Tuesday, August 15, 2006
today...english...haixsh....i may have screwed it up....i guess...barhx i not sho sure..this time..i may do badly for my english prelims...but..things always happen at the wrong time...disappointment ish all i can say...
i dont want to say who ish not happy with me..cause i myself dont even know...and i felt that i shouldn't know in the first place...i have regrets...lots of regrets...are my friends really telling me that a particular thing had happened and this ish how they treat me?then when i treat you good enough...help you all with most of the things and i sacrificed my time...ish this how you all gonig to repay me?
my meaning in the last sentence of my 2nd paragraph isn't asking or even demands repayments from you all...i just finds that....no matter how much i had done...ish my help really not appreciated or my help should be therewhen you need it?
haixsh...headahces...coming at the wrong time?or am i worrying things too much?i don't really know or understand...this week...i have been alone..even my lao da didn't chat much with me lerhx....i can't rely on anyone lerhx...i am all by myself...hope that i really can pass my prelims and thats what i hope for...
to my lao da...if just now what i had say may not what i meant..please correct me..and if i said anything wrong..pleaseh forgive me...cause..i am sick..and...maybe...it ish true that i am alone...think..nevermind barhx..being alone alsho good derhx...at least...it ish not the first time lerhx...anyway..good luck for the rest of your prelims..take carex...
today stopping here...maybe..just maybe i am dead...peace will prevails...no one knows...have seen what people are and how they really treat you when you are useless to them...but..i dont blame..just blame myself for maybe being too kind..but...when i become a cold-hearted person..views changed...i had started to give up hope...but studies..i will strive for the best...byeees...
-= SaDnEsS IsH AlWaYs ThErE =-
Tuesday, August 15, 2006