Precious Moments

2007-02-27T03:05:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...quite a ncie day...got remedial...then at least remedial end early can pei my dear dear go doctor there get excuse letter..then erm...yarhx..

then erm...want say sorry to my dear dear alsho..let you wait for my remedial to end then can pei you..really very sorry...

though you dont mind..but feel very guilty to make you wait for me...but at least can pei my dear dear go home everyday..i happy lerhx..

I LOVE YOU DEAR DEAR...MUACKZ...

will treat you good and will carez for you derhx...loving you forever...

2007-02-23T18:45:00.000-09:00

dear dear...thought you just show abit of carez...and i show alot of carez towards you...but no matter what happens dear dear..i still love you as you are...dont worry dear dear...no matter how sad or angry i am...i will still carez and love you and dote you derhx...

I LOVE YOU DEAR DEAR FOREVER...MUACKZ..

2007-02-16T03:56:00.000-09:00

yo! haha...i am back to blogging lerhx...haha...erm...yarhx...haha...

anyway...thanks my cute cute dear dear and alsho my laoda for asking me to blog back...haha...

anyway...love today derhx outing with my dear dear...

though feel abit bored when i am lonely...but still can chat with her...

and just want to let you know dear dear that...

I LOVE YOU...

muackz...

2006-12-05T16:51:00.000-09:00

*yawns...just woke up..haha..but alot of things had happened yesterday..and i really thought it through lerhx...will treat people very cold because since...they dont appreciate it...and want take things for granted..then of course..i fufil their wishes lorhx..

haixsh...really very tired lerhx...i didnt expect such things to really happen...but..it did..and i cant stop it...since she dont appreciate..and no matter how many calls i made and smses i sent...she dont reply me..thne..of course..this shows that she doesnt evencarez..that means..i wil alsho be the same..

anyway...gtg lerhx..i dont want say much..byeeees....

2006-12-03T04:29:00.001-09:00

haha...today went tp work..totally bored out...not much to do and alsho...really no phone horx...felt sho bored and like..although ish good larhx..no one disturb you..but horx..still felt something missing...

now have to wait till tml then can try to keep my private msges liao..haha...sho happy..and alsho..decided to like..be with melinda again...and the love for her didnt faded...or anything..just remained the same..haha...

okays larhx.today quite tired..then legs sho suan...sob sob..hope she by my side..haha...okays larhx..gtg lerhx..byeeess...

2006-12-01T19:25:00.002-09:00

haha...arlowe all...i am back..haha...nowadays working marhx..till night..sorry worhx...cant blog..but horx...since there's a person wants me to come back to blog..okays barhx..haha...i am back..this time really blogging liao..

okays larhx..these few days or maybe the whole month of dec..will be busy and will be very tired...and busy..haha...and alsho...if really got time..i try to blog..sorry...haha..okays larhx..today not much to write..wants to rest..sho...byeeees...take carez....

2006-11-11T17:47:00.000-09:00

hihi...back to post lerhx..since liang wants me to post..sho..i will derhx..haha...sorry worhx..sho long never post lerhx..got lots to say...sorry my friends...no post for you all to read..haha...i have made a comeback..haha...

okaes...erm...now not working at plaza singapura liao...now working at wheelock place..new place...but not mens section..but beauty section..partly or home and alsho lingerie...but..lingerie...of course..cant do...as you all know..haha...

okaes..haha...to all my friends..if going orchard...come wheelock place find me chat..haha...lolz..no larhx...got time then come..no time..nvm..haha...okaes larhx..working there..new plcae..new colleagues...and alsho...new friends..haha...

haixsh...but i really missed my old friends and colleagues...nvm..today going back to look for them..haha...hope the people i looking for not off barhx..haha...okaes larhx...gtg lerhx..byeees....take carez all...

2006-10-31T04:33:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...didnt went to work cause i off...haha..but still went back to my working place to visit my friends and colleagues...and alsho...to go for interview at centrepoint...haha...and didnt know i got the job..haha...

okaes larhx..erm..i think...my blog...i going to close soon lerhx...not gonig to have it anymore lerhx...cause i no time to update alsho...anyway..take carez all...if possible...remove me from your link..erm...yarhx..okaes..gtg lerhx..byeeeees...

2006-10-30T06:42:00.000-09:00

today..went to work...then like..alone..cause yang off..haha..tml i off..he will be busy..maybe not..will be very free..haha..today mens department....first time i think..nobody..haha..sho quiet for awhile..but evening..quite busy...haha...

today's work..hai hao lorhx..haha...not sho tough..not sho relax...but...got headache...haixsh...sianx..till now...haixsh..no mood larhx...okaes larhx..gtg lerhx..byeeeees....

2006-10-28T07:07:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..went to play basketball first..then go work..then work that time..felt sho tired..and felt that i want to sleep..haha...dont know next sat want go play anot..haha..maybe every sat will play..i think..haha...

today..at work..quite okaes larhx..haha...not much things happened...but..did alot of things..and alsho..cheer up quite abt...and alsho..learn alot of things from others..haha...okaes larhx..gtg lerhx..byeeees...

2006-10-27T06:47:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..went to work as usual...but..felt sho down..sho lost...sho moody...felt like..everything i dont wish to do...want to be alone...and being in the darkness...just thinking through things..haixsh..sianx arhx...

haixsh...quarreled with my mum just now..over a piece of bread...didnt reheat it to eat only...haixsh..then became more worst....dont know how to close the thing...sianx...very tired lerhx....no mood in everything..haixsh...gtg lerhx..byeeees..

2006-10-26T04:26:00.000-09:00

today...off...haha..no need go work..but my mood isnt good though...haha...cause sho sianx at home...but..everything just went well..though i keep resting..cause having headaches...then around evening..went for interview at action city..at ps...

hope i can be employed barhx...haha...got work exp...think should be can barhx..but...still no news..hope by next week..can inform me...haha..okaes barhx...gtg lerhx..byeeees...

2006-10-25T06:33:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...went to work late abit..haha..cause went to play initial d..then play over time..haixsh..got scolded lorhx..then like...sho damn unfair larhx..my break lorhx..then sms alsho cannot mehx?wth larhx..sianx...after 5 november..i not working liao...

forget it..really hate some people in this job larhx..haixsh..nevermind..ren..one more week only..after that..dont see them liao..sho happy...lolz...okaes barhx...got to go lerhx..nothnig much to ost....byeeees...haha...

2006-10-22T07:37:00.000-09:00

rodat...hmm..went to work early...haha..but today..went early..not go work..but walk around...go see discs...haha..wanted to buy best 2006..but horx..dont have..haixsh..music junction dont have...sianx...

anyway...erm...see where got then go buy barhx..haha..nevermind...today..hmm..afternoon bad day..then erm...at night...relax abit..haha...slack like siao..haha...anyway...erm..ayrhx..tml wokring alone..sy off..sianx..no one to talk to..haha..luckily got larry..but..think he would be busy alsho...haha...

okaes larhx..got to go lerhx...byeeees...

2006-10-21T07:12:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...work...sianx..got soclded for resting..sianx...nvm..haha..forgive and forget...haha..da fang right?haha...cant fine this kind of guys derhx..haha..jkjk only..haha...okaes larhx today go work...haha...

yesterday never post..very tired..and alsho busy when i got home..haha...anyway..yesterday was tired..and this morning still go play basketball in the morning..more chum...haixsh..nvm...haha...hope tml will be a better day...

okaes larhx..gtg lerhx..byeeees...

2006-10-19T06:29:00.000-09:00

today..hmmm...erm..went to work as usual...haha..but today..legs are sho suan..more suan then yeterday...then erm...had to sit till harbour front then return back to buangkok..haha...took around 45 mins...haha...sianx..

then erm..tml.had to be early..cause erm...tml the shift ish early...haixsh..sho maybe tml wont be having breakfast with my mum lerhx..sho..yarhx..then erm..hope tml wont be like today..haha..okie larhx..gtg sleep lerhx..byeeees...

2006-10-18T06:25:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...was like...scared i late..but end up..early..haixsh..but horx...tml got to be early lerhx...earlier then sheng yang..cause taking the locker key...haha..anyway..haha...he not online..promise me send me song..haixsh..nvm..tml find him talk..haha..lolz..jkjk only...

anyway..today alot of customers and like...sho busy..and alsho...alot of things to do..then like..want to take a rest alsho cannot..haha...anyway...fun working at Marks and Spencer...and alsho...know quite alot of people..haha...

anyway..erm..today think write till here barhx..gtg lerhx..byeeees....

2006-10-17T06:32:00.000-09:00

today..hmm..woke up at around 7+..cause was woken up by a msg from my friend...haixsh...then erm..went to sleep back till around 9+ then wake up..then go hae breakfast with my mum..then went home..

haha..went home..erm..pla com awhile...then got to go to work..haha..was like..first time..not sure of everybody..but...soon..get along well lerhx...haha...then was like..chatting with the others although dont understand them well larhx...

then erm..was like..haha..being in the food department..then went to ladies derhx..erm..shirt only larhx..then erm...men department..then erm...went to the cashier to help..haha..didnt know it was sho fun..but...legs are damn suan larhx..haha...

okies larhx....need to 'recharge my energy..then tml got to go work..for the next 19 ++ days..i thikn..nevermind..anyway...it was fun...haha..gtg lerhx..byeees...

2006-10-16T04:39:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...woke up in the morning..then erm..went for breakfast with my mum..then erm..bought quite alot of things..then erm...went home..play com of course..play till around noon..then went to sleep...

then sleep until half-way..thought my friend callled me..but it ish not...ish my boss..can like that say..called..saying got job..then of course..happy...haha...then told yang..but john cannot go..haixsh..sho disappointing..caus ehe need to study 'O' level e maths...haixsh...

okie larhx..tml starting to work lerhx..must sleep early..haha...okies..gtg lerhx..wish those sec 3s..2s...and 1s their results will be good and alsho hope they pass with flying colours..take carez..byeeeees...

2006-10-15T06:02:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...woke up early in the morning..then go market with my parents and bro..then erm...go buy alot of things..haha..breakfast had what i long wanted to eat derhx...hahaha..sho happy...haha...

then afternoon..went to eug's house..then hae lunch lerhx..then go dte to celebrate shamalah's birthday...and waited for 2hrs...then the birthday girl then come..but...nvm..hha..worth waiting...haha...lolz...

then was like..keep cooking for the majority to eat..then erm..had two chicken wings and drink water?haha..nvm larhx...go east coast that time alsho the same..and didnt have any appetite to eat alsho..haha....

okies larhx..today..erm..enjoyed myself with hairi..and eug..haha...had lots of fun..and alsho...really thanks to hairi and eug for their company..i think can say that barhx..and alsho laughter and jokes..haha...okies..gtg lerhx..byeeees..

2006-10-14T05:33:00.001-09:00

today...hmm...woke up around 7.30...then wash up...then went to my shi fu's place to play basketball...then was like..much better luck at his side derhx basketball court..more scoring opportunities...haha...

erm..then went home around 12..then was like..bathe lerhx..then slepy till around 4+ 5...then went out to hougang mall to find eug..then walk around then erm..go eug's house..then stayed awhile till around 7.30..then went home...haha...

tml after noon..wont be at home..sho...yarhx..anything msg me barhx...or call me...haha...anyway...just want to let her know that...no matter what happens..there will always be someone to carez for her derhx...

then erm...tml maybe stayin overnight at the chalet..but most probably not staying..i not sure..havent decide yet..but...there ish a big chance not staying..sho...yarhx..okie barhx..today writ etill here lerhx..gtg lerhx..byeeees...

2006-10-14T05:33:00.000-09:00

2006-10-13T04:43:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...woke up at around 7..then went to wash up..then prepare everything before going skcc to play basketball...haixsh..skills are 'rusty' now..sho made alot of mistakes and alsho...didnt really perform well...haixsh...

then erm...after palyng basketball..then went hom..then went out again..to go for interview...then erm...hope can really go to work larhx..then erm...if really can..then start work on next tues...haha..

erm...she called..but..didnt chat long..because erm..nothing to say..as she said..erm..but..still chat with her...then erm...alsho chat with her on msn alsho...and saw her post yesterday i think...and erm...hope if she really want to find someone to be with..hope she choose wisely...hope she wont be hurt again...

okie barhx..today writ etill here lerhx...having an early rest..before gonig my shi fu's house tml to play basket ball... and alsho to polish up my skills...haha...

2006-10-11T21:20:00.000-09:00

haixsh...day after day..things have gradually been changing..and changing have caused large amount of hurt that no one will understands...haixsh...life have to go on..but will be going on with feelings not being happy..but..sad...

anyway..no matter how hurt i am..how sad i am..she will never understand...she just only say...i dont wish to go into relationship and thats it...but she didnt even know how hurt others will feel when she said that...and..i dont know if she really appreciates what i have treated her and sacrificed for her...and alsho..just one sentence saying...she cant forget her ex and thats it...haixsh...

i just dont udnerstand..i have been thinknig through..have she ever just sit down and think...just reflect on what she said to me ish sho easy...like drinking water..but..does she knows that asking me forget about her ish any easy thing...and alsho...saying all those things..ish she trying to hide some things..just say no..it ish true..and want others to believe...is it easy?

i sometimes think back...i am willing to sacrifice my time...and on that day i meet her...i am willing to wait for her no matter how long she takes..and treats me like a fool...and alsho...keep giving false hopes..and denies it...and just a sorry for not turning up and say hates people who are late...and thast it....i just dont know who exactly i am in her heart....forget it...

no matter how sad i am...feeling sho down...she can just happily enjoy herself..treat as nothing happens...but can i?haixsh...my friends ask me to forget about her...but...it ish not as easy as being said...haixsh...today think write till here lerhx...no matter how much i say...it will be of no use derhx...forget it...haixsh...

2006-10-10T23:33:00.000-09:00

today....woke up at around 10+...then was like...sho tired larhx...just felt sho sho tired...haixsh...then got lots of reminders and phone calls...and msges...reminding me to go school take report book....sianx...

weather damn hot larhx..cant stand it...but what can i do?and somethings i alsho can even do or force...e.g...relationship...no matter how much i love a person...care about a person...woke up early in the morning when i have no school...just msg the person...and hope more replies and care and concern from the person...and hope the person just would realise who ish treating the person well...who ish willing to sacrifice for the person..but in the end...what i get?i get nothing...just a sorry from that person and saying i dont wish to have a bf now...

sometimes...i just dont understand...no matter how much i give...no matter how much i am willing to sacrifice...not say i want anything in return...i just dont get why cant that person just understand...just keep giving me hopes....but in the end...just hurting me...why should the person just give m false hopes and make me feel sho hurt...is it the person want me to feel as hurt as she ish?i just dont understand...

haixsh...my friend told me...forget about her...but..i replied...can i?ish it sho easily to forget someone when you truly love that person?haixsh...just felt sho sad...felt sho hurt...just dont really understand some things..forget it...i think i understand lerhx...maybe this sunday..ish alsho a good time for me to let me think through some things alsho....today write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx...byeeees...

2006-10-10T07:06:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...was like..gonig to the market with my mum..before gonig..or maybe on the way to the market..i didnt even sweat..then reached market lerhx..till i get home..was like..sweating lie siao larhx...haixsh...nowadays sho hot sia...cant stand it lerhx...

then at home...more sianx...nothing to do...thne was like..everyday waiting for the phone to ring..waiting for giodano derhx job...sianx larhx..haixsh...gonig to go crazy lerhx...sho bored at home..rather not have holidays larhx...lolz...

anyway..morning msg her..till now...only received one of her msg only...haixsh...nevermind...if no reply...i will still msg her derhx larhx...haha...anyway..hope she ish happy and alsho...take carez of herself can lerhx...dont wish for more..haha...

anyway..today write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx....byeeees....

2006-10-09T03:41:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...didnt felt happy...then erm..took my POA..haixsh...sianx...dont know will i pass anot...haixsh..firstly...erm..didnt msg her lerhx..but...just missed her alot..alot...haixsh...dont know what should i do...

hmm...just read her blog..and found out that...she wants me to msg her..erm...okie..then erm..every morning i will msg her barhx...from today onwards...i will msg her every morning..even if she dont reply me..it ish alright derhx...

anyway...today write till here barhx...gtg lerhx..byeeees...

2006-10-08T04:18:00.000-09:00

roday...hmm...just like yesterday...but today got study my POA abit...anyway...just couldnt feel happy or anything..just felt sho down and all that..sianx...anyway...luckily my friend ish there to console me and give me advice...

and alsho vice versa larhx...anyway...just only let her know that no matter what..i still love her derhx...haixsh...just really hope...if she really have thought it through...erm...happy for her...haha..anyway..yarhx...

haha..okie...today write till here lerhx..byeeees.....

2006-10-07T04:55:00.000-09:00

haixsh...today..hmmm...went to tampines mall to apply for job at giodano...didnt know sho many apllied for it..haha...anyway..found a friend that i can chat with..haha..hard to find horx?haha...anyway...amire this part of a poem...

forgiveness beyond measure
memories to treasure
love written as a lullaby
enchanted dreams of you and i

haha...anyway...i think everyone should know what it means barhx?haha...past doesnt really matters...what matters most ish the happy memories that stay in your mind and heart even your love love have to part with you because of some events...

sho...what i want to say ish..hope no matter what happens...thsoe couples together...no matter what quarrels and events you all experience and have the thought of breaking up...just rmb...love dont come easily...treasure..appreciate...okie barhx..write till here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-10-06T05:43:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...dont know what to post..cause in no mood to post larhx..haha...anyway...haixsh...just want to say..if a person knows how to treasure and appreciate what he or she have..everything will be just fine....

no matter what...the feeling have not die...and will never ever die...once a lifetime...there ish always someone you will love most..but somehow...some things do not end up as what you wish...like most people says..leave it to fate..

haha..okie larhx..today write till here..byeeees...

2006-10-04T22:52:00.000-09:00

today..hmm..post early barhx..today not for myself..but for someone else...a special person..that makes me dwell....haha...more of a peotic person..haha...lolz..anyway...will be writing only a poem today..and nothing else..dedicated to her...

i've told you many thought that werent borrowed or brought
and in a lifetime,who would have thought
that i have found someone who was just meant for me
i can't expalin the magic or why this should be

but there ish one thing i know for certain
that this just ain't over till one of us draws the curtain
for i've seen an angel and i want you to know
if its my choice to make,i'll never let you go

don't know what life holds,maybe there's no reason or rhyme
to think you may be mine in a matter of time
and though i cannot love you cause we are seperated
you do dwell sho deep within my heart

2006-10-04T03:47:00.000-09:00

today...not even feeling happy...just feeling down..feeling...sad...cause..was thinking about what she said..and like...haixsh...didnt know what to do....but i know something and that ish...no matter what happens....i will always love her only...

although things sometimes may not be what we wanted...but knowing that if you truly love someone...no matter what she do...or what ish her past ish..you will still love her...to me..i thought it through lerhx...no matter what her past ish..i do not mind...i just hope to be with her can lerhx...

though she wants me to forget about her..but...i just cant force myself to do it cause..i know that...she ish part of my life...and...nothing will make me change in loving someone else...okie barhx..today write till here lerhx...byeeees....

losing out to darkness...
isnt what i always do...
searching for that light...
hope to be with you...

total darkness ish coming...
hopes are shattered...
but the dim of light...
showed me the way out...

though life ish short...
just like a dream...
but my love for you...
ish eternity...

2006-10-03T05:41:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..not feeling happy..till now..haixsh...is it an excuse to ask me like other girls?haixsh..i dont really know why would she be saying all that to me sho suddenly...i just cant believe it...

haixsh....just feeling worried and concern about her...cant really think of any reason that she would like that tell me sho suddenly...just felt sho sad and disappointed larhx....dont really know what to do...haixsh....

okie barhx..today write till here barhx...not in the mood to write lerhx..byeeees....

2006-10-02T03:20:00.000-09:00

today..hmm..felt happy...but worried as..she told me something...then was like..during exam still thinking of it..lolz...anyway..really worried about her...cause she dont really know how to take carez of herself derhx...

sho yarhx..tml meeting her..haha..sho happy...anywya..will be treating her eat something..haha...anyway..yarhx..today exam..erm..quite ok...can do..but not sure can pass anot..sho sianx...lolz...

okie barhx..tml maths lerhx..must jia you..haha...okie larhx..today write till here lerhx..byeeees....love her forever...i love you lao po...muackz...thks for your encouragement....thks...

2006-10-01T04:16:00.000-09:00

today..hmm..quite ok barhx..quite happy..but wake up early in the morning..maybe not use to it..or maybe last night sleep late barhx..not sure...anyway...was studying history the whole day...haixsh...worried cant do lehx...sianx...

anyway...got the confident...cause got her encouragement...sho...yarhx...haha..although today only got 2 msges from her..i already happy lerhx...then later..maybe study again..then yarhx...haha..this tues...wed..and thurs gonig to meet her..and sat alsho...haha..sho happy...

anyway..gonig to study lerhx..time ish running out lerhx..okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeeees....

2006-09-30T02:36:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...felt disappointed...and sad...cause didnt go out with her..cause she woke up late..sho never go out study with her...but next sat..will be going out with her to study lerhx..haha...sho happy...

anyway..although now ish just try...meaning...be with her...if cannot..then cannot..but...at least...can be with her can lerhx...haha..sho happy..didnt know came back from woodlands...got good news..haha...

anyway...went out with my friends to study...hmm...was raining on my way to woodlands...then studied history...then was like..falling asleep when i studying...wth...not concentrating..haixsh....but next sat..sure will concentrate derhx..haha...

okie larhx..just had two pieces of bread bought from breadtalk at woodlands...haha...thats my dinner...haha..okie barhx..today write till here lerhx...byeeees...

2006-09-29T05:07:00.000-09:00

today..i really found out how much i love her lerhx...morning..her msg didnt come...till one single msg...but...no matter what i do...i didnt make her happy though....but..the love from me to her...will never ever end..cause i know that....i am truly serious this time..no more joking aorund lerhx...

tml...going to meet her lerhx....hope...i could be happy tml barhx...hope no matter how unhappy or sad i am..i will still be happy in front of her derhx...cause she will always be the one i love....okie barhx...tml then post..byeees...

2006-09-28T04:55:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...felt happy...erm...of course worried...worried about her...although her msges came...i still feel sad..why would i be feeling sad when i should be happy?i feel sad..firstly..not because cant msg her...or receive her msges...

haixsh...sometimes i think...or maybe..from what she told me before...she needs time to froget some things...i am willing to give..but...sometimes...i feel like..i dont really know her well..in a sense like...she dont ask about me..or..maybe i may know her quite well...i think...but..the distance ish always there...

maybe...just maybe..she cant forget about him?i think...but...i really feel that...our relationship ish like...not being taken seriously..or maybe..sometimes nothing to talk about...and...felt like a stranger to her...

haixsh...loving someone ish easy...but...will the love lasts?i dont really know...sometimes...i think to myself...who am i to her?just a normal friend?maybe...know she got alot of friends...but..sometimes..i feel neglected...but...it ish alright..cause i am already use to be alone lerhx...

sometimes...think back...who would want to care for me...or even like me...or like..be their bf...maybe because i am kind or caring..sho maybe should have lots of friends...but...with my temper and bad points...it overlaps the good points...

sho...overall..what i say want to say ish...although i may love her alot..willing to sacrifice everything for her...but..feeling it..treasuring it...will be her choice...sometimes feel like breaking down and cry...just got that kind of feeling...okie barhx...today write till here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-09-27T03:08:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...felt ok..but abit not happy larhx...cause maybe her msges didnt come as often as before?i dont know..but..still....see her pic in my phone...missed her sho much...haixsh..dont know why...just like..waiting for her msg to come...

anyway..today..erm..quite ok..learned something in school..and alsho finished my five years series for my physics...then erm..thought of buying maths derhx five years series...but scared no time to do..then like..exam ish nearer and nearer..haixsh...

alsho..on the other hand...was worried about her of course...haixsh..dont know why like..the both of us like have a distance between each other...but..hope that this distance would no longer be there...cause..really love her alot...

though sometimes i feel lonely...felt neglected..but...always tell myself that..no matter what..i will always have friends by my side...haixsh...okie barhx...today write till here lerhx...alsho dont know what am i writing..haha...byeeees....love you lots...muackz..

2006-09-26T01:05:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..felt ok...quite happy...although her msges today didnt come..only in the morning...i already felt happy lerhx...dont wish to expect more anyway...sho..yarhx....hope she dont tired herself out can lerhx...haixsh....sho worried about her....

okie...today..erm..in school...quite ok...had poa for four periods..then had english..but teacher never come..think prepare for investiture for councilors barhx..anyway..got free period...then went for running...waahx..eight rounds...sho tiring...lolz...

then history...erm..did source based..anyway...did well..but still not up to standard yet..sho sianx...haha...anyway...must jia you liao...'N' levels coming lerhx..more worried...anyway...hope can relax myself abit larhx..dont too stress...

then chemistry..do papers...haixsh....think didnt did well barhx..not sure..haha...anyway...didnt know sho fast then release from school lerhx...haha...then went to study with my friend..but not long...go home liao..or maybe..concentrate..then time pass fast?haha...

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx..byeees...although didnt msg her much today...happiness ish there...hope she take carez of herself...and of course...hope she dont woverwork herself....more worried about you...hope you know...love you...muackz...

2006-09-25T04:13:00.001-09:00

today....early morning woke up...haha...then chat with her of course..then chat till around 6..then gtg lerhx..sho hate my msn sia...early morning got problem....sho lousy sia....cause me to create a new account..but...if i know..i create a new account..then can chat with her longer..haixsh...nvm...

then reached school...then of course..was feeling happy..cause later during chem..her msges came..sho happy...but really worried about her..she sho tired..then woke up early...then dont know she can take it till nine at night anot...haixsh...

of course...today got concentrate on my lessons..but slept awhile during english last few minutes..cause a bit tired..but nvm..worth it derhx...cause got her encouragement..and concern...but really worried she cant take it as she ish sho tired...

hope she get home safely and alsho...have her dinner as she ish hungry lerhx...haixsh..till now..still dont have her msg recieved...sho worried lorhx..haixsh....okie barhx...today write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx..byeees....

waiting for her msges....love you...miss you lots...

2006-09-24T03:14:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..felt sho happy..cause can hear her voice...haha..maybe 'addicted' to hearing her voice lerhx..haha...anyway..hearing her voice..just makes me feel happy..and comfortable as i truely love her...

anyway...didnt regret loving her because...she ish kind..caring..lovable..cute..abit silly..meaning silly that will bring out cuteness...and alsho pretty...sho i feel sho fortunate to have her by my side....

okie barhx...felt happy chatting with her..but..tml i cant chat with her..cause she got lesson till 9 at night..sho poor thing...anyway..she sick lerhx...sho hope she really take carez of herself..and alsho drink lots of water...rmb that your lao gong ish worried about you lao po...

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeees...i love you lao po...muackz...

2006-09-23T03:46:00.000-09:00

haixsh....why am i starting of with sighing?i alsho dont really know..maybe how my feeling feels...maybe?haixsh...didnt know...liking someone ish sho hard...and alsho painful...but...anyway...hope you are able to know it...haixsh...

some things...if the opportunity ish there...if you did not grab it in time and treasure it...once it ish gone...there will be regrets...haixsh..anyway...really felt down today...didnt felt happy...my phone ish like..as quiet as a cemetry...

maybe..maybe cant say as quiet as cemetry..cause wei hao got ask me go play pool..but no money..sho yarhx...haixsh...gonig to work after 'N' levels..hope can earn as much as possible..cause want to lessen my parent's burden..and alsho..save up to buy what i want..haha...

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..ending with a short reminder...i think..haha..byeeees...if htere ish any chance passing by...grab it..hold on to it..and treasure it..if any chance you know someone were to like you..grab holsd of it..treasure..dont let it go...

2006-09-22T04:11:00.000-09:00

hihi...back to posting..after a long rest..i am finally back..haha...okie larhx..starting with today...history..erm..quite ok barhx..should be doing my source based questions..but ended up chatting with my shi fu and hairi in humanities rooms...haha...

then after history ended...it was physics...haha...never sleep..but felt tired..didnt know why..sho..yarhx..haha...erm..tried to understand more about electricity lerhx..haha...then maths...didnt did much..was going through orchid park's paper 2...

then english...was doing comprehension...going through the answers...then relaes from school...haha..dont if i am lucky..or what...knew this special friend fo mine..erm..she ish kind..nice..caring..cute...lovable...and erm..abit silly...but..overall she ish nice...

thoguth of meeting her today afternoon derhx..but...didnt cause she was feeling down..sho stayed at home to comfort her..and alsho to cheer her up...and then around 3+...chat with her on the phone..anyway..knew more about her..alsho..her voice ish sho nice...i love it..haha...okie barhx..today write till here lerhx...

at the end of the day...no matter what happens...there will be a special friend by your side...okie abrhx...byeees...

2006-09-20T03:55:00.000-09:00

today...erm..not here to post my own things..but maybe..the last post?i dont know..but...today's post ish an apology to my classmates....

i know that last weeks or maybe last two weeks...my post wasnt a good one...maybe affected some of my classmates...sho hope to apologise for what i done and alsho...hope everyone could be able to accept it and move on...

I'M SORRY...

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx...byeeees...

2006-09-18T03:51:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...was feelin overall..okbut..at least...learn something...but the thing ish like..i dislikes headaches...sometimes...just couldnt do what i wanted to do..because it always pains whenever i wish to do something...

haixsh...sometimes...things dont go what you wish it would be...but..sometimes...if time could turn back..i hope i wouldnt do anything that left behind ish regrets...okie barhx..today write till here lerhx...byeeees...

2006-09-17T02:54:00.000-09:00

today....hmm...was thinking of writing my compo..but...didnt..then went to sleep...haha..now ish like..sho cold...sho damn cold..is it i got fever..or is it real cold?i dont know..but...now weather have changed...sho take carez everyone...

today..hmm...till now..havent did any revision or studying...haixsh...aiming for at least top ten in 'N' levels..and i hope i could achieve what i really hope for...and of course..will work hard derhx..okie barhx..today write till here..gtg lerhx..byeeees...

2006-09-16T03:48:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..was feeling ok..having headaches...then was studying abit..playing com abit...then alsho pack up my file...see which worksheet to leave at home..haha...then was like..chatting with my friends...haha...

haixsh...time flies...almost end of the year lerhx..time really flies...starting of the year..you find time pass slowly..but nearly mid-year..you will know time really pass like water flowing..haha...16 more days to 'N' levels...

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx..byeees....

2006-09-15T03:56:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..was feeling ok...at least...now i feel quiet and alsho more relaxed and alsho feeling more heart-warmed as i finally really understand erm...can say understand a friend of mine as he ish down and needs encouragement...

today...my classmates celebrating our friend..wei leong's birthday...earlier...anyway..didnt go today..partly ish...i dont know him well enough...then erm..go alsho no use...then erm...just didnt want to go there then mess up others mood...and alsho raining of course..haha...

okie barhx..not much to write liao...stop here..byeees...

2006-09-14T04:10:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...wasnt happy either...haha..dont know why..at least...today felt much better then yesterday...haha..lolz...anyway...thks eug..jowell...and keith for tagging...but..dont know thk keith for what..haha...jkjk...

okie..start of with..erm..quite bored lessons now though...but...prelims results are out..ranking in class..25...haixsh...aiming higher position...didnt perform well in this exam..hope prelims i could perform better...

erm..anyway...now from what wei kang said...i just realised that...actually quarrelling with others about some matters...make me realise that i am just wasting my time and breathe as sho what i win..will i get any prize?

haha...what wei kang said are true...no use quarrelling...you win also no use..sho..i decided not to say anything..the problems sooner or later will go off derhx...okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-09-13T04:01:00.000-09:00

today...not going to post my own things..or views..but to clarify things with people...and hope after all of this i had say...you all understand or dont understand..or want to jump into conclusions..i dont wish to know..or even care..cause i am sick and tired of these problems...

esther..maybe..after reading this side of the story..you may still think i am still in the wrong..i dont really know what you thinking..nor do i want to know what you are thinking...but i just want to tell you...to put yourself in other people's shoes...

i know that...eugene told you that i scolded him..and broke friendship with him...firstly..i know partially..it was my fault..but..at that point of time..having flare up..will i be thinknig properly..meaning..will i think about the things that will happen if i did that?i dont think you could be thinknig like that barhx...

and..did he ever tell you he hung up my phone?i dont think so barhx..or..maybe he told you...but..you were in his shoes...maybe..thinknig that haning up the phone ish to prevent quarrelling...but..have you ever stand in my shoes and think...if you are the one..you are angry..and someone were to hung up your phone..will you feel happy...or angry?

think it over...i dont want to say no more...just think about it..but..if you still wants to think i am in the wrong...i reallly cant do anything...you think..some things i dare say dont do..i think you are wrong..if i do it..will the class be happy with me..or angry with me?think it through carefully...hope you are clear minded..not thinking of the disputes between us..and read through carefully..dont ever make the wrong steps...

okie barhx..today write till here..byeeees...

2006-09-13T03:55:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...not very happy though...but..today's blog ish not me writing about my self..but ish to clarify things...and truthfully...i am really sick and tired of troubles coming one after another...i just wish to make clear to everyone...

esther...please...maybe you think that...after the incident of me and eugene's quarrel...maybe all of you..i meant..whole class...doesnt really understand or know the whole incident...or maybe..they know..but...just hearing on side story...and you all jump to conclusions...

please...i know what you all thinking..i know..maybe partly it was my fault..but had eugene himself tell you that he hang up my phone when i scold him..i know that...i am wrong to scold him..but..respect ish needed...i can say sorry to him..but..will he say sorry to me when he hung up my phone?

i know you think that...he hung up my phone...ish because wanting to avoid trouble...but..look at another angle..put yourself in my shoes and think...if you were the one being hung up on..will you feel happy or angry?

i dont want to say no more...just think about it...okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-09-12T04:01:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..the same..erm..or should i say...things always remain the same?haha..i dont know..anyway...nowadays....can say ish..alot of people doesnt wish to find out what happened actually and jump into conclusion...

anyway..want to say ish...people are like that...like what people say..a leopard wont change its spot..neither will big muths and busybodies...and alsho..nowadays...unknown people..except for jowell and eunice..came to my blog..

firstly..want to thk unknown people for tagging...erm..your comments..like..e.g..unknown threats and want to act ah lian..erm..maybe you go police station act barhx...i not interested..anyway...trouble starts from people being busybody..sho the consequences you all ownself settle worhx..haha..

anyway..dont want to talk about those people liao...haha..okie barhx..today write till here...byeeees...

trouble never ends when having busybodies or people trying to find trouble..sho stupid and childish...sorry for them...haha...

2006-09-11T04:09:00.000-09:00

today...didnt know that news travel sho fast..of course larhx..with big mouths...sho big that can eat an elephant...haixsh..anyway...the whole class sucks..accept for some people..anyway...this makes me know who are my true friends and who are not...

some people just want to act pai kia...when they are already hopeles...and alsho..shameless...i dont know why..think she ish big?i dont think sho...i think their acts like that makes me feel they are more stupid and brainless...

nevermind about that barhx...dont want to waste my breathe on hopeless and shameless people..anyway...now these eople wna tto create trouble..go on lorhx...you think i care?i dont need to care about this craps...

okie barhx..today write till here...wish all those having exams good luck..byeeees...

2006-09-10T05:27:00.000-09:00

thks li si yun...and esther for tagging..add live to my blog..anyway..want junk up..go on..i dont mind..you negative replies..i alsho wont care..thks alot..didnt know nowadays busybodies and long lived names of hum ji come tag me..haha...

oi...next time tag me..tell me..i will go see..if possible..erm..you want to create trouble horx..erm..thnik you find wrong person...haha...go on and scold me barhx..i will treat it as you are an old lady that loves to nag..i love it..thks...

2006-09-10T03:16:00.000-09:00

today...hmmm....wasnt in a good mood actually..didnt know why..or what happened...just feeling down thats all...haixsh...after what happened today...really lost faith in friends...will never gain it back anymore...i dont know why...

now that...if i am not wrong..a am finally realising....if there are true friends...i wouldnt be like..erm..sad?angry?i dont really know..disappointed?haixsh...changing my attitude towards my friends?there's a need to...

to esther...erm..you dont reply me through msn...nvm..just want to tell you through here...please..just mind your bloody own business...dont try to act smart...i can tell you..you want to hate me..go on...i dont care...but..dont ever ever make me lay hand on a girl for the first time..if i do..dont tell me to stop...i have given you this warning...and if i hit you horx...dont ask others go tell teacher or you tell your parents..you deserve it...

okie barhx...write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx..byeees...friends...will never ever have true friends...leaving you in a bad state when you are in trouble...thats all...

2006-09-09T05:04:00.000-09:00

today..hmm..woke up around 10+was feeling tired..and having split headache...sianx..then went to have breakfast....haha...was quite happy today...haha...then around 1+ 2 like that went to hougang mall...

not to shop..but to buy jay's new album..haha...got it...and got a poster...haha...sho happy...then reached home...was talking about my mum's work derhx some problems..then i try to solve it peacefully..haha...

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeees...sho happy...yay....

2006-09-08T03:51:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...wasnt feeling good..was like..alone at home..till afternoon?feeling bored...cannot play games..cause game not working..haixsh..sianx...sho..was like...listening to songs...haixsh...was feeling rather down actually...

was like..having friends that dont appreciate your kindness...and treating you like an enermy...now i really see what 4/8 friends of mine are...i dont want to say all larhx..cause i know some are not like that....

okie barhx...no mood to write anymore...stop here today barhx...byeeees...

friends aint always there for you...just making use of you...when it ish over..you are just rubbish..do some soul-searching barhx..i dont want to say who...

2006-09-07T03:59:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...actually wasnt feeling too well...cause got cough..changed my mood...thought that something special would changed my life..but..it end up..didnt...what i am..how i feel...will remain the same as before...

haixsh...i wasnt happy..because..made a wasted trip to school..when there ish no remedial..and my shi fu actually msg me and thought i would received...but..no...my prepaid was empty...and i thought he knew my new number..but didnt...

why do people have to be like this..take things for granted..is it that i need to become a different person..a totally different person...become someone that ish cold-hearted...then will people realised my good points?i dont really know...

forget it...i just know that..i have a very good god-father..and a very good friend...jowell...and thats it...haixsh....things have changed...it isnt the same as before...haixsh..okie barhx..today write till here..byeeees...

2006-09-06T03:57:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..was feeling tired...maybe holiday mood barhx..haha...no mood to study..at least today i am happy abit..but not all...but..my temper still the same...haixsh...anyway...today was like..sleeping away in the afternoon...haha...

haixsh....adfter i watched Healing Hands just now..i realise something...when things are by your side...you take the things or granted...when the things ish gone..you will want to treasure it...but..you left with ish regrets...

what i like ish...when things that you have..you dont treasure...to me..it ish true...haixsh...maybe..somethings to me...i didnt really treasure it to the max...when it ish lost...i regret it...haixsh...wy do i have to do things like that?haixsh...

forget it barhx...some things are meant for you..they are meant for you..if not...you hold on to it alsho no use derhx...haixsh...okie barhx..today end here...byeeees...

2006-09-05T03:39:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...was feeling extremely happy..after my social stuides paper...but..after just now..suddenly no mood...happiness just disappeared...haixsh....didnt really know why..or what really happened....

when you are really feeling down...everything just didnt feel meaningful to you...or..just maybe...i just...just missed her?i dont really know...sudden mood lost...will i regain it?or just remain how i feel permantly?

why do such things happened to me?is it my fate?or is it the truth?is it destiny that makes her not belong to me?why do heaven have to treat me like this?i dont really know...haixsh...mood-sad...song-sad...what i do-no mood...haixsh...

okie barhx..today write till here barhx..byeeees...

2006-09-04T03:53:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...starting of 'N' levels lerhx...haha...was nervous..but it turned out to be much easier then expected...but..i really hope i can pass barhx...hope i didnt screw it up...haixsh...very worried nia...haixsh....

after school...wanted to go home with my shi fu..but...end up letting him go home alone..haixsh....nevermind barhx..tml i alsho got the chance to go with him..haha...cause today after school went home with yw they all...then alsho go central top up my card...

okie barhx..tml ish ss and chinese listening compre...gonig to study ss later...okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..anyway...thks my god-father..jowell...for all your support...i will definitely do well derhx..thks alot...byeeees...

2006-09-03T00:35:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...quite ok barhx..still left abit of cough and runny nose..haha...was like..having my breakfast or maybe lunch around 12+...cause waiting for my bro to get up...lolz...then was like watching tv...lolz...

then like..finished my breakfast lerhx..then head for home...then study..but didnt want..sho play com till now?lolz...okie barhx..later maybe not gonig to go online lerhx..sho maybe study or watch tv..if got time..watch tv lorhx..haha...

tml ish 'N' level chinese..two subjects..one ish chinese...the other one ish social studies...haixsh...hope i am able to pass and hope that i can do well in it...haha...anyway...was chatting with jowell...something struck my mind..haha...

was like telling him...falling for someone ish easy...but forgetting someone ish hard...haha...haixsh...but will i be able to forget about her?i dont really know..haixsh...okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-09-02T04:47:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...going to recover soon...haha...but still got abit of cough..flu...and headache...sho fan..haha...got headache..i just hate it...eat panadol like no use derhx lorhx..haha...sho better dont have...then wont feel moody...haha...

today...hmm...study chinese..write the pei ci till halg way..then dont write lioa..haha..later gonig to write liao..really no time liao..haixsh...time passes sho quickly...i want it to stop...but..cannot...haixsh....

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeees...

2006-09-01T04:19:00.000-09:00

today....hmm...quite ok..on the way to recovery liao...but still abit sick of course..haha...today tried to study..but cannot..haixsh..dont know why..like think i dont want to study like that...but this will never happen derhx...study abit liao..tml must chiong liao...

haixsh...'N' levels are reaching real soon...chinese...next monday..paper one and two...then tues ish listening compre and ss..haixsh...study ss must chiong on monday after school..listening compre no need cause no need to study anyway...

sho tml start to chiong chinese..sick for two days lerhx...my papa alsho..haha...hope he recover soon barhx..okie barhx..me alsho of course..gtg lerhx..byeeees...

2006-08-31T03:59:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...quite okie...but sick..sho not sho happy of course...but...played phone snooker with my shi fu..haha...win him 3 rounds...lost to him 2 rounds..haha...mistake and no mood to play cause i sick marhx...

thought it was minor sickness...but..didnt know it became worst...now got fever..haha...anyway...didnt saw her today..i guess...but..i still where got time to look out for her..haha...but happy we won the aces exercise thingy..haha..Most Enthusiatic Class...haha...

got cars derhx pencil box...sho like it...haha...today..erm..quite enjoy myself..haha..sick still go play pool...stupid right?go wtih jerico..wei hao..and two other jerico's friends...haha...waahx..ex sia play pool....now left $10...how to buy jay's new album next week?haixsh...

okie barhx..now not feeling well..sho stop here lerhx...byeeees...

2006-08-30T04:19:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...wasnt happy anyway...but through lessons..i was like..erm..mugging of course..no time liao..haha...sho...after lesson was like...erm..abit happy only..but saw her...everythnig change..good to see her..but on the other hand..sad...

didnt know why i feel like this....maybe she dont really appreciate barhx...forget it...then efl that time saw her getting english and geo certs...after school..reached home then msg her..but..negative reply ish all i got...

of course..didnt want to reply her derhx...but really cant stand it lerhx...reply back negative alsho....was 'flaring' up in the msg...of course...the last msg was i send didnt came back with a reply...

anyway...'N' levels are coming lerhx....think will be posting..but come online to post only barhx...okie..today write till here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-08-29T03:55:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..got back our papers..except for POA...history..finally i pass...haha..sho happy..physics alsho..haha..but chem fail until very chum...cant help it lerhx..but going to aim for a pass in my chem...POA...and ss...and maths alsho..haha

today..hmm...saw her of course...but..i rather not see lorhx..haixsh....see lerhx..i alsho more heart pain..haixsh...see her happy..but i end up being sad...haixsh...tml will be seeing her alsho..i think will barhx...haixsh...dont really know what to do....

haixsh...a failure...always a failure...haixsh...will never be able to win her heart derhx larhx..forget it barhx..hope i can pick myself up asap...cant be in this situation anymore..sho sainx and sho tired...

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-08-28T03:58:00.000-09:00

today...erm...alsho post yesterday's one barhx...yesterday went to watch soccer...then didnt post...haha...lolz...erm..was happy yesterday cause my com ok lerhx..then got new phone...haha...sho happy...

maybe some think that i am rich..but i am not...i am not rich cause i save up my money and i spend wisely...cause i would plan when i spend my money...cause i know that every single cent isnt easy to earn...

today...hmm...got back results for chemistry...maths..and social studies...haixsh...not happy at all man...didnt do well...chemistry...fail until sho chum...maths...i am abit more confident...but...paper 2 didnt do well...haixsh...ss....almost pass...

haixsh...sho..maybe i think it ish time for me to really put prelims results to one side and start to concentrate on my 'N' levels...really really very worried...haixsh...think wont be online often lerhx cause exams are coming lerhx....

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx..byeeees...

2006-08-26T06:13:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...erm...unable to go online...haha...com was sent for repairs...haha...hope to get it back by tml barhx...haha...today arhx...haha..saw the samsung X680...sho like it...haixhs..going to spend the savings i have on it...but then no money to go buy MP4 liao..haixsh...

then hope sho i am able to buy MP4 barhx..haha...cause want a new MP3...haha...see if can fork out part of it then my mum fork out the rest...haha...hope can buy barhx...sho maybe get lerhx new phone then have to work hard in my 'N' levels...

then today...hmm...saw yw's tag...haha..you too late liao larhx...already got the advice from jowell liao..haha...but thks anyway...haha..lukily i got a bro..haha.he sho damn good...lend his laptop to let me play..haha...i meant post barhx...haha..maybe lend my new phone to him barhx...

sho happy today...erm quite happy barhx..but..spent my hard saved money...sob sob...going to cry..lolz...haha...okie barhx..today`write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx...byeeees...

2006-08-25T04:45:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...quite ok..haha..got back my english results...haixsh..overall..after first moderation..it was B3...65 marks...but..it wasnt good as it was moderated...hope that i could get an A1 in my 'N' levels...then i will be happy...

but...get B3 for my english salsho i not happy..firstly...partly...wasnt good enough..secondly..cant be happy...cause of her...saw her today...she came to school around afternoon like that..then went for practical tests...

then she was like..later walking with a guy...somemore ish joe's friend...haixsh...maybe..just maybe they are just friends like askin how to do practical..but...i cant really think that way...just lost...just lost...wasnt feeling hapyp even though i win my shi fu..i am still sho sad...

haixsh...just like what jowell says..dont let that thing affect me..but..i just cant stop worrying..thats why..haixsh...like what jowell says...concentrate on studies...haixsh..maybe i should really do sho barhx...

from what i heard...not say i want to say..but..i feel thta my class got a few that dont appreciate this teacher that i like most larhx...like to take advantage...was really sad that i could hear bad things about teacher even though this teacher treas them good...nvm..luckily i wasnt there...if not..that person better watch out..i surely will scold that person...too much liao lorhx...some of my classmates are damn too much..i hate them..you know who you are..i dont want to say...

okie barhx.today write till here lerhx..gtg lerhx..byeeees....

2006-08-24T03:49:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...quite ok in school....then know that my chinese although didnt get A1...but managed to get an A2..haha...but still not happy with my compo...haixsh...still getting very low marks...i hate it...

haixsh...compo john get sho high..but no matter what....i 'N' level will get better then him derhx...casue he get 46/50 for compo just for writing bao zhang bao dao...wth...i 'N' levels MUST win him...

haixsh..forget it..dont talk liao...already pek cek cant find the song i want liao...nvm..haha...dont care liao...one more day or maybe two more days time...i wont be online...but i think can post..if cant post..sorry sorry...hope can barhx...

today..haha..saw her a few times..haha..sho happy...saw her happy can liao..haha...okie barhx..today erm...write till here barhx...gtg lerhx..byeees....

2006-08-23T03:40:00.000-09:00

today...got back my chinese paper..haixsh...didnt do well...always get the same marks..i meant marks around there derhx...sianx...then think made alot of mistakes in the contructing of sentences and compre...haixsh...

today quite ok...haha..saw her today in school and she walked past me..haha...was sho shocked..haha..but felt sho happy that go up the stairs that time almost fall down..wth...zzz...think something will befall me soon..real soon...

overall..todya mood was erm...quite ok barhx..haha...nowadays had been going home either with sy or joe..haha...didnt know why..but felt that at least walk towards the bus-stop where i can take my bus..although they have to sho called 'leave me'...but i feel that got someone to talk to can lioa..haha...

okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..results aint promising...hope that i could do well in the upcoming 'N' levels...byeeees...

2006-08-22T04:07:00.000-09:00

today...got one free lesson..haha...although today teacher got come..but...time-table for subject teachers was late..sho..got one free lesson..haha...but didnt do much..just like...read newspaper...then alsho like listen to cai they all talk about maple lorhx...

then prelims papers are not back yet..not sho fast..maybe next week or somethig..not sure...but 'N' levels are getting nearer and nearer...time ish short...worries are increasing...will i do well in my 'N' levels?i dont really know...

without knowing..almost one year ish ending...holidays are long..but just far from reach...i just know that i want to do well...will just study and study and study...haixsh...just hope i really can pass...

now that i know prelims results wont be outstanding...improvements ish needed...just like POA...i can do well derhx..but..just never put in enough effort...okie barhx..today write till here...byeeees...

2006-08-21T05:29:00.000-09:00

today..hmm...last paper for prelims..that ish maths...haha...paper one was easy..but there ish still mistakes..CARELESS MISTAKES...haixsh....then study hard for paper two during the one hour break..but...the paper started abit late then usual time...

then after the paper...felt sho relax...a burden down...results are coming back...this week or next barhx..think this week all the results will be back lerhx...before exams..worried..after exams..alsho worried...haixsh...

before exams ish worried paper maybe hard..things may not rmb clearly..but after exams...ish worried that cant pass the exams..haixsh...sianx...okie barhx..today write till here lerhx...gtg lerhx..byeees...

2006-08-20T04:31:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...mum went to work..then stayed at home..didnt study much...haha...went to play..went to sleep...then a call wake me up..but not her's...it ish hairi..wth...wake me up...talk about maple..sianx...now never play maple lerhx..ish HERO...haha..lolz..

then woke up..then go play..till my dad bought dinner back..then went to eat...then stop playing..then watch tv till now..then now got abit of time then rest awhile...then now come to post...tml maths..didnt study much..wth...maybe too confident liao..haha...

okie larhx..maybe later go study..cant dont go study..maybe football ish the distraction...haha...okie larhx..dont talk liao...tml then post barhx...byeeees....

2006-08-19T06:06:00.000-09:00

today...went to buy bag..haha...saw the bag i like..but spend the money i saved...abit hard pain..haha..then bought a present for teck choon..anywya..HAPPY BIRTHDAY...may all your wishes comes true..haha...

today..reached lerhx...wass like enjoying myself..but...abit tired...haha...then was like bad day for me..cause MP# spoilt...luckiy wasnt ipod..if not kill myself..haha...then went to have dinner after the sports..haha...felt sho tired...

then went home with melvan...jowell...eug..haha...chatting happily in the bus..haha...say alot of happy thing..i will rmb you derhx jowell...haha...sho nice to hcat with...haha...at least got you as one more friend..haha...

then she called...but..didnt talk much cause was with friends and like..abit want to know who i talking to..haha...anyway...had an enjoyable time with my friends..haha...although my MP3 spoilt..lolz...haha..okie larhx..write till here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-08-18T05:09:00.000-09:00

today...physics and chem...hope can pass barhx..didnt study much cause erm..maybe play barhx..haha...lolz...then today..cnteen never open..got the foodfair thingy..haha...the food quite nice..but..abit ex lerhx...hehe...

then today..slept from 1+ to 5+ barhx..i think sho..haha...then got the ge tai i think..sho noisy sia..but i am tired..sho didnt care...hehe...then she called..aha...chat w awhile.then put down..then chat again..then need to put down around 6+ barhx..not sure..then just now called her..chat with her...haha..she happy can lioa..lolz...

actually...just want to tell her that...although we can like...erm..be together..but..i scared cant last long cause i got personal reasons..but hope that she dont take it too seriously cause if i really need to concerntrate..may cause harm to her..sho..hope that she can like..slowly let go then erm...maybe try to like...treat me slowly as normal friend..cause the day of like..leaving her maybe close..and...i got a serious warning from my parents..sho..hope she understands..but..hope she dont be sad...cause...i really dont wish to hurt her alot when i leave...

okie barhx..hope this post today doesnt affect her mood..and if i said anythnig wrong..pleash correct me...and sorry...okie barhx..stop here lerhx..byeeees...

2006-08-17T04:22:00.000-09:00

today...poa...haixsh...going to fail the very first time lorhx...haixsh..really didnt do well..maybe the paper was hard..or maybe i didnt study well barhx..haixsh...dont know what to do...must work hard after the prelims..real hard on poa...

today...went to look for mr koh after my poa paper..then asked him maths..haha...then went home..then had my lunch...then went to sleep after that..sleep from 12+ to around 5+..then get up lerhx that got a call from her..then chat with her..feelings...still the same..haha...lol...

chat with her..then erm..she was like..erm happy..yarhx..haha...then chat with her till around 7...then went to have my dinner..then chat with her again at around 9+ then erm..yarhx...then hope she ish happy barhx..not gloom gloom derhx..haha...tml cant chat with her...haha...but at night can chat with her derhx..haha...

okie..today post till here barhx...byeees....

2006-08-16T03:10:00.000-09:00

today...although i was in an average mood...but...it still did not end up good...memories are back..friendships broken...hates surfaces...but studies still important...i have never been happy afyer what i had done...things ad already happened and i shall not say anymore...

today..history...i am starting to like hist..but like the topic on germany...haha...i sho damn like it...but..i may screw my hist up...the points i write may not be the correct answer...haixsh...i am definitely back to my sad days...

no matter how much she tell me to be happy..i just can't be...and maybe..will not be...cause now some people or maybe'classmates' think that what i do ish just joking around..dont take what i say seriously..when i do it..you all blame me..what you all want actually?....

i am not angry..but disappointed and sad..i have friends that come to you when they need help..but leave you when advantages are taken...you call yourselves my friends...i think you are rubbish...not say i say that...but how you treat me..think about it....

i today not much of a mood to post..sho ending here...byeeees...

2006-08-15T03:34:00.000-09:00

today...english...haixsh....i may have screwed it up....i guess...barhx i not sho sure..this time..i may do badly for my english prelims...but..things always happen at the wrong time...disappointment ish all i can say...

i dont want to say who ish not happy with me..cause i myself dont even know...and i felt that i shouldn't know in the first place...i have regrets...lots of regrets...are my friends really telling me that a particular thing had happened and this ish how they treat me?then when i treat you good enough...help you all with most of the things and i sacrificed my time...ish this how you all gonig to repay me?

my meaning in the last sentence of my 2nd paragraph isn't asking or even demands repayments from you all...i just finds that....no matter how much i had done...ish my help really not appreciated or my help should be therewhen you need it?

haixsh...headahces...coming at the wrong time?or am i worrying things too much?i don't really know or understand...this week...i have been alone..even my lao da didn't chat much with me lerhx....i can't rely on anyone lerhx...i am all by myself...hope that i really can pass my prelims and thats what i hope for...

to my lao da...if just now what i had say may not what i meant..please correct me..and if i said anything wrong..pleaseh forgive me...cause..i am sick..and...maybe...it ish true that i am alone...think..nevermind barhx..being alone alsho good derhx...at least...it ish not the first time lerhx...anyway..good luck for the rest of your prelims..take carex...

today stopping here...maybe..just maybe i am dead...peace will prevails...no one knows...have seen what people are and how they really treat you when you are useless to them...but..i dont blame..just blame myself for maybe being too kind..but...when i become a cold-hearted person..views changed...i had started to give up hope...but studies..i will strive for the best...byeees...

2006-08-14T03:49:00.000-09:00

hihi...today..erm..abit excited...then erm...today got ss test...sianx..dont know if can pass anot..hope sho barhx..study liao siao lorhx..if cant pass...i really dont nkow what to do liao...but hope i am able to pass at least this time and n lvls and o lvls....

today...after ss test...went home...went home..then play maple awhile..com ish sot sot derhx..nvm...dont care...can at least use can liao..but hope to have new com of course...haha...but maybe see first barhx...

then went to see her...but she didnt turn up at white sand..went to her place and stayed till around 5+then left for home..on the way..talked to her...but..abit afraid of like..erm...nothing to talk to her about..but nvm..will think of something derhx...

tml ish english test...die die must pass..cant fail...hope i am able to pass...i really am worried..really worried about my exams...but..of course...more worried about her...haha...hope she ish fine..now..she ish sick..dont really know what to do...sianx...

okie barhx..today write till here barhx..gtg lerhx....byeees...all the best for everyone in their exams...take carez...

2006-08-13T04:48:00.000-09:00

today...erm..starting of the day sad...till late afternoon...still damn sad..no mood to do anything..but..have to force myself to study hard for ss...cause she say sho derhx...and alsho abit of pressure from my god-father...

then till her call came...i was energised and felt happy...her voice really changed my mood to happy mood...everything gone...only happiness stayed with me..but...tml..gonna meet her lerhx..yay..

1st...3rd..and 6th of september gonna pei her....gonna go out with her...yay...hope we enjoy our meetings...haha...dont know where to go..haha...anyway...sho happy...waiting for this 3 days to arrive asap...haha...

okie barhx..tml ss..wish everyone all the best...do well worhx..gambete...next monday finish liao..must work hard..take carez too..byeeees...

2006-08-12T04:12:00.000-09:00

today...i am happy...but now..i am sad and become abit...erm...lonely?what i emant ish cant chat with her lerhx...sianx...really very very sianx...i am becoming lonely and no mood cause i cant chat with her..nvm...hope she gets her phone back asap...

tonight...i will be lonely and no one to talk to lerhx...haixsh...dont know how to sleep tonight..cant chat with her...then tml alsho...mood changes now..really change lerhx...everything i do has no meaning to it anymore...

why do this have to happen to me...argh....haixsh...today..no mood to post anymore...lost the mood now..anyway..ending here..byeees...

2006-08-11T04:12:00.000-09:00

today...i am becoming different...didnt care much of what happened yesterday...then today..see my lao da..happy liao...haha...didnt know why chat with him can like..erm..start to smile and something like that..haha...

today..chinese...can even study wrong shou ce?can believe?cannot right..haha...now..at least talking to joe back..but relationship not that good...haha..nvm..today...stayed back for maths..then stayed back for D&T..till around 5+...

help my lao da with his folio..then help him decorate his content page...cover page..help him alot of thnigs..then alsho pei my god-father...haha...then went home..alot of people sia on the bus..hate peak hours..it sucks...need to stand..by...got my friend to chat with me..i am dont care about anythnig..haha...

okie barhx..today write till here barhx..starting of prelims..good luck everyone..best of wishes...and do well...and lasho take carez...

2006-08-10T03:15:00.000-09:00

today..post yesterday..then yesterday's post is for tues derhx..haha...aiyarhx..very luan liao..haha...nvm..yesterday..erm..not much to say anyway....morning go home..then do things lorhx..then relax the whole day..

today...woke up..had my breakfast...mum not at home..went to work..haha..then study lorhx..start to study..problems comes...i am sick and tired of this lerhx...started quarrel...then breaking of friendship...two friendships broken lerhx...

is it something wrong with me?is it all my fault?maybe to some people..it ish my fault barhx...but...does it matters to some people?i dont want to say who..but please...please keep your mouth shut...dont talk sho much...if you want trouble with me..trust me...i will make the trouble you want it to be one me serious for you...i just dont want to say sho much...

problems are coming...the thing i iwll be doing ish..keep everything to myself...everything from now on i will not even bother...and hope those troubles dont come find me...just hope that i can finish my exams peacefully without any problems...

i am really really very very tired..i can take no more lerhx...things are getting worst...sho..please please...if those of you wants trouble...find someone else...please...i dont wish to have troubles during my exams as i need peace and quiet time...thks alot...

okie barhx..today..not in good mood...and will never ever have good mood...think i will stop here barhx...byeeees...

2006-08-09T03:21:00.000-09:00

today...think write alsho yesterday's post barhx...but yesterday wasnt home till this morning...yesterday...after celebration in school...went home..then went to sleep...then woke up around 4+ 5...

then msg yw...then met him at city hall interchange..then eugene they all then arrived...then we went to Raffles Place Shopping Mall to wait for the others..many came...thne know eunice and the others...anyway..know who are they..haha...

then we went in seperate groups..one ish yw and the other ish daren's...then yw they all went their way then we went our way...went to watch fireworkx...building blocking..me and keith chiong down to take video...but there was obstacles like the tree?lolz...then we went to jalan kayu after that...

we spent 4 whole hours on journey to jalan kayu...then too late for me to go home..then stayed overnight at eug' house..didnt slept well maybe because not used to it barhx...then this morning home sweet home...haha...then went to sleep...ut woke up half an hour later...wth..nvm..haha...shi mian liao me..haha...lolz..okie barhx..today write till here lerhx..byeees...

2006-08-07T03:12:00.000-09:00

today...hmm....not in a good mood this morning..erm..erm..can say ish hai hao only lorhx...haha...then lesson time...chem...average lorhx...can say ish...like normal type of lesson...then came maths...haixsh...sho noisy...dont know how to concerntrate...sianz...

then pe...play games...try to play...haha...then recess...haixsh...sad....think troubles coming soon if i am not wrong...just dont know why some people like to create trouble...sianx...then english..do compres...sianz...then history...revision...prelims coming lerhx...

then after school...see my god-father...then went for maths..then take songs from him after maths..haha...sob sob..last song that no batt...sob sob...then never take..hope tml can take...haha...okie barhx.today..enjoyed myself..tml..song arhx...no lesson..then wear home clothes...haha....byeeees...take carez and wish everyone good luck in their exams...

2006-08-06T03:52:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...wasnt in a good mood..didnt like do anythnig..was feeling tired...body aching all over...damn tired...went to work last night..till 11+ then reached home..then quickly went to post..didnt got a chance to chat with my god-father...

things had changed...sho does we humans...changing all time round..tml..i dont know how am i going to go for pe...body aches...sho tired lorhx...haixsh...okie barhx..today write till here..byeees...

2006-08-06T03:45:00.000-09:00

today...not feeling the same way as usual...i shouldnt know something i should know..or maybe..i dont know...erm...just feeling that i had been betrayed...feeling lost...totally lost...i just dont know what to do...

haixsh...today i think no mood to blog..sho i think i ending here barhx...byeees...

2006-08-05T07:03:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...mum need to go for work...sho went to have a quick breakfast..then go home..then was left at home till around 11+ 12 then went to eugene's house...then went to my mummy's house woid-derck...i meant lai shi yun...haha...

then went to work...got scolded....lolz...anywya..spent a happy and enjoyable time there...but...till now..really relly tired..now i really know that going to work isnt easy...it ish damn tired...lolz...pain from top to toe...haixsh....

then now..just reached home..took a bath...then now post...then...hope to stay up quite late cause i today really neglect my this special friend of mine...really really neglected her..sho must chat with her..then tml sleep till late late derhx...haha...okie barhx..today write till here..byeees...

2006-08-04T03:11:00.000-09:00

after today..i now realise who are my friends..and who are not...i wont say who..but..you should know yourself..if you think that you want to treat me like thta..nevermind...i dont find..the only thing i can tell you ish..if want to stay further from me..go ahead..i dont care lerhx...

the most important thing now to me ish studies...without some of my 'unwanted friends'..it ish alright derhx..cause i feel that you are there...to me..ish an obstacles....you are blocking the way...

haixsh....i have thought it through..just like what my god-father said...we are unable to find friends that can be trusted...we cant be always sho good to them and make them take advantage of...

anyway...today saw her...today..the only time i see her ish after school...haixsh...she pass by my class for lessons i myself didnt even know till her friend pass by..then i know thta i have missed her..nevermind barhx...

tuesday ish national day eve...haha...can wear home clothes...gonna wear like..going out...haha...lolz..okie barhx..today write till here barhx..byeeees...

2006-08-03T03:05:00.000-09:00

today..not in a good mood as i just cant like..maybe control my temper barhx...anyway...hereby wish sheng yang and julia a very happy birthday...may all your wishes comes true...lolz...saw how sy got birthday bash...abit shocked...really shocked...

anywya...saw her today 3 times i think..or more then that...but...the thought of forgetting her will never ever leave me...she now looks moe and more stress...then she now never tie her hair lerhx...she have changed...changed alot...

for me...my shi fu says i looked more haggard lerhx...but...waht can i do?if you really love someone...the feeling ish there...sometimes...feel like crying...just got the feeling of crying out...but..as what yw says...a man dont shed tears...but sheds blood...

no one will ever understands me...hopes are gone...really gone...do i really have to end up feeling like this?i dont know...tml..maybe i going for taf...i go for taf ish not because of the sake of losing weight..but..i go for taf ish just to relax myself..tml..i surely will chiong 8 rounds derhx...

okie barhx..prelims coming lerhx..take carez everyone oput there...and hope she take carez of herself...now that she no longer sits there...but...i am able to see her i am already contented lerhx...okie barhx..byeeees...

love ish there...
feelings ish there...
but will the person knows?
i really dont know...

as people says...
time heal wounds...
but the wounds i have are too deep...
time will never heal it...

2006-08-01T22:53:00.000-09:00

FRIENDS...is there friends in my class?is there friends that i can trust?i really dont know...but..i have lots of doubts...lots and lots of doubts...cant i find a true friends that i can trust thoroughly?why is it things have to happen at this time?....haixsh...

i am thinking...is there friends that i have?during chinese lesson...was talking about cmpre...then the compre was like..talk about friends...actually...what the compre contents said ish true...you have friends..but...you have friends that are just using you...make use of you...be sho kind for what right?haixsh...

FRIENDS...i dont thikn i have...all are just using me to help thm do ths do that...have they really think about other people's feelings?i really dont know...and...i really dont want to know...i am really sick and tired lerhx...

to yw...if i never talk..means i am in bad mood...or..i just want to keep quiet...if i keep quiet the whole day..means that..something ish wrong with me...meaning...i have really lost trust in my classmates..sho...it ish better to leave me alone or try to talk to me...but..i may not reply you...sorry worhx..maybe i just want some time to think it through or something...think i will be like that tml onwards barhx..after reading this post today...if i tml onwards never talk...or say anything...means that i have lost trust in my classmates lerhx..and..my attitude will change alsho...

okie barhx..today..not in good mood...anyway..nothing to write lerhx...byeees...

2006-08-01T04:53:00.000-09:00

today...hmm...first period...POA...i meant four periods...sho tired lorhx...lolz..anyway...able to understand and alsho refresh things that have been lost...then came english...functional writing...most of us were like..copying almost what miss sharmilah have printed out for us...lolz...

then recess...went taf...with hairi..john...keith...wei hao..and joey chua...wah....can die...long time never run..run like siao...then sho hot...then wear uniform to run..never bring my pe tee...sianx...zzz....then went back...face red sia...lolz...

then came history...doing our essay question...luckily got my history notes....lolz..i meant the book from popular derhx...then like alomst coping everything..but...thinking skills were needed...lolz...

then came chem...teacher never come..worksheet..do till siao..but was fun..sharing notes and answers with eugene..do till physics...sianx...then physics remedial..sleep until got headache..zzz....then ss...do source based questions...maths..teacher got something on...sho release early...

today...hmm..saw her...looked qiao cui alot...really alot...unable to stop the temptation of msging her...then sent her a msg...hope she knows...erm...yarhx...just want to tell her to take carez and alsho work hard...but..health more important..dont fall sick...

okie barhx..today write till here barhx..gtg lerhx...byeeees....

2006-07-31T03:17:00.000-09:00

today....neither sad nor happy..but feeling disappointed with some of my friends...haixsh...should i give up hope marhx?i just dont know...is it that i am feeling sensitive?or what?i really dont know...hope this thing doesnt affect my studies i hope...

to yw...erm..i dont want to tell you cause maybe i just want to think it through myself barhx..i dont know...i just feel that my friends are slowly walking further and further from me..i am left alone soon after...i just got that kind of feeling...actually..ish disappointed lorhx..haixsh...for some things that i dont really like about my friends lorhx...haixsh...as what eug says...'what goes round comes around'...hope what he said i will really understand the meaning barhx...haixsh...

anyway..today not much to say..just got one word to describe...TIRED...damn tired...sleeping early tonight i think...tml still got remedial...must work hard from now on..gambete...lolz...byeees...

2006-07-30T04:31:00.000-09:00

today...erm..most of the time..i am quiet..dont know why...i am a quiet person today...lolz...anyway...quiet the whole day..never play maple...went to do my hw...then pack my things and sort some things out barhx..then chat with my mei...

anyway..today not much to say...same like yesterday..but..got some things need to tell a few people...

to yw...sorry if i dont tell you anything...cause...i dont really wish to make you sad when you are happy...words of advice from you..i will accept...you know whop she ish lerhx...i dont want to many to know..but i think..quite alot know lerhx...even some teachers...time will never ever heal wounds...the one suffering ish always the one loving someone else...haixsh...hope i could be happy once more...but..if you see me smile..thats not happiness...thats sadness...take carez lao da...

to eug...our project going to finish lerhx..but..time ish running out...no time to do anymore..if can..i hope to produce it asap...by this week..no matter what...anyway...if can..try to help me...anyway..if cannot..nevermind...

to everyone in 4-8 terrorpin...prelims and 'N' levels are coming...work hard and study hard...give it your best shot...after working hard...relax time will always be there...it never runs away...sho..at the same time..take carez and rest wel...

okie barhx..today write till here barhx..gtg lerhx..byeeees....

2006-07-29T04:19:00.000-09:00

today...hmm..wasnt erm...quite happy...erm..nither quite sad larhx..but..got someone to talk to ish always good derhx...will never ever feel bored..but now i bloggging...maybe ish abit bored barhx..lolz...

today..reached home after my tri to the market..went to play maple...play till afternoon...about 5+ barhx..then stop lerhx....sho tired..lolz...got one new mei...lolz...she ish good...kind..caring...thne erm..sweet...and nice...

erm..okie barhx..today there isnt much to blog...sho stop here barhx...byeeees....

2006-07-28T02:57:00.000-09:00

today..erm..early morning bad mood...haixsh....now..really got someone to control me lerhx...cant say part of what i want to say...lolz...anyway..got someone to talk to and someone thats quite caring towards me...lolz...sho good right?envy right?lolz...

anyway..today...had ss...wow...was surprised that i suddenly from no mood in ss become got mood in ss...lolz..then like..sho interested?surprised...didnt know that...erm...yarhx..then came mother tongue...was helping mrs lee...actually..before she arrived...i was msging..then she saw..but never confiscate...sho good right?lolz...

then maths..was teaching about transformation...lolz...but thats easy...and abit complicated...sho..yarhx...lolz..then eng...teacher was angry..cause class too moisy..actually..yarhx..it ish true...forver got things to say derhx..not one day of silence and listen..lolz...

after school...remedial..but teacher got meeting i think..then do ying yong wen and zuo wen...do till 3.30...then go home...sho sianx...at least got someone to talk to..but not long..then listen to songs lorhx..lolz...okie barhx..today quite tired...sho..yarhx...byeees..

2006-07-27T01:04:00.000-09:00

today...quite happy...but...maybe abit sad barhx..not sure..haha...finally...got haha this word lerhx..maybe today because of english lesson barhx...play that game..haha...sho fun and nice...then make me happy till now..

then today after school...went to have lunch..but never..went to drink milo..haha..lolz...then went back to class to play reversi...then have maths remedial...erm..eng dont have...but..maybe miss sharmilah today after school looks sad...

erm..todaycan say ish..maybe fate barhx...went to her class today..all like kana scolded...then she was standing in front...sob sob..but never mind larhx..just hope that she never got scolded can liao...hope she ish fine..just fine...

today..maybe unable to sigh barhx..causse too happy lerhx barhx...okie barhx..today write till here...byeees...